Trauma Healing + Life Update
I’ve been on a little, unplanned hiatus for the last couple of months. I had this blog post ready to be drafted earlier in the summer, but for some reason never had the opportunity to dive in and start typing. Only until today, do I understand why. I’ve been going through a deep transformational period of healing some deep rooted trauma that I've experienced, well, most of my life, but I am just now diving deep in understanding, accepting, and healing the wounds.
Because I really pride myself in cultivating a healing, conscious business, I had to look in the mirror recently and say to myself, “I must show up for myself and begin healing these wounds to really show up for my business.” It was honestly a hard truth to face, as I thought I was doing pretty good. Until I experienced a recent loss that caused and opened up some of these wounds, did I realize that I had to put my business on hold so I could focus on myself.
It’s been challenging, to say the least, to navigate these waters. Looking back at your whole life and reflecting on where it all stemmed from can be pretty painful. Healing is a lifelong journey, but I am glad I am in the right place, with the right tools shedding light onto the areas that need love. I’ve been digging into Dr. Gabor Maté’s work lately and understanding how trauma lives in the body. With the combination of journaling, body movement, somatic therapy, and microdosing psilocybin, I’ve been able to cultivate an open heart and integrate the love back to myself. For so long, I’ve been giving the power of my love and heart away, only to find an empty cup for myself. It’s been liberating being able to finally come back home to myself, tending to my inner child, and taking my power and life back into my own hands.
I wanted to share my experience of what I’m currently going through because there is strength in being vulnerable. All of us have experienced some sort of trauma in our lives, and the effects of the trauma can show up in our relationships with others, ourselves, and how we perceive the world around us. We are not perfect beings, and never will be. But what we do have is the choice to free ourselves from the pain and trauma, to witness a new reality we may never have thought was possible.
It’s important as a conscious, healing business that I give full transparency in my process, including my own healing journey. I also wanted to share how crystals have been supporting me during this time. Learning how to be gentle with myself and sit in stillness have been challenging, as the environment around me says otherwise. Then I had to remind myself that there is productivity and progress in resting, and crystals have been that source of motivation to be still and listen. There is so much wisdom within the crystals that want to be explored, to be heard, to be touched. I found myself communicating with the crystals in a way I had never really experienced before. They had given me insight about myself that I never knew before because I never allowed myself to be still enough to listen. It was beautiful. It reminded me of how powerful these crystals are and why I love sharing the wisdom and healing energies to this community.
So many connections, opportunities, and manifestations came through for me as I took the time for myself. For those that follow Lacy Phillips work at To Be Magnetic, understand that sometimes the blocks we face limit us from receiving all that we are deserving of. That in order to call in all that we are worthy of, we must unblock and heal parts of ourselves to be able to receive them. Again, there is progress in resting and healing, even if it may not look like it at first.
I’m honestly not surprised all of this has come up, as we are in the midst of so many planets being in retrograde. There is so much realignment and reevaluation happening everywhere, personally and collectively, and sometimes allowing yourself to surrender and trust the process is all that you can do. As we also move into Eclipse season, it reminds me that we are all moving towards a new way of being, and sometimes in order for that to happen is to shed layers of yourself that no longer serve you and the path you are heading towards. But of course, with that process comes a type of Death that is necessary to grieve to be able to move into a Higher Consciousness for our Highest Good.
If you’ve read this far, thank you. This has been a journey and has taken me awhile to get back on my feet, and may for awhile. But I am happy to have space within my work to be able to share and be vulnerable.
Remember, through letting go we can transform the ashes of our past to rise as the Phoenix that we are meant to be.
Much love,
Amelia
Crystals for Trauma Healing
Clear Apophyllite
Phantom Quartz
Stilbite
Epidote
Heulandite